hey all. a short update before i get into the post. there will no longer be a homecoming post, sorry. shit has happened, i’m working through a lot of emotions, i wasn’t completely happy with the post in the first place, and i’m not in a good place at the moment to post it, so i’ve just trashed it and it won’t be going up. apologies on my part, but i have to preserve my personal mental well being over the happiness of my readers. love you! but emotions come first. maybe i’ll write a little talk up about what happened but for now it’s all good, i’m just gonna keep living and letting life happen.
aight now that that’s been taken care of, i have- well, had- a predicament. twice over the course of one week i was nominated for the sunshine blogger award. also, i’ve already done it once (back in the very beginning of this blog’s existence), so this is a little odd for me. to be completely honest, i’m not in the greatest mood for a tag so i’m just going to combine both of those nominations and answer the questions in them just for funsies. i’m also thinking i’ll bring back my very first nomination post and re-answer the questions in it just to see if i feel the same way as i did nearly 9 months ago. holy crap… nine months? wait let me double check this… oh my goodness gracious it’s been 10 months! what in the world? okay okay this is getting way off topic. i apologize… onto the questions.
firstly from allie’s nomination:
1. if you were a perfume what scent would you be?
ummm idk, something darker feeling but warm and somewhat sweet… which coincidentally actually describes my usual day to day bath & body works scent, thousand wishes. so yeah just go with that.
2. what is your favorite color, but described with imagery?
the lilac bushes on the front lawn of our old house, especially when they were first in bloom.
3. chili fries or pizza fries?
neither because if i tried to eat either of those i would literally puke my guts. stomach issues for the win. so yeah just normal steak fries thanks.
4. do you have a secret talent?
i can do really fun stuff with my face… not in a weird way. okay yeah it’s weird but i have a really expressive face and i can do this weird thing with my eyes where they shake and freak people out. it’s a lot of fun at parties. not that i’ve ever actually been to a party, i just assume it would be in that situation. oddly enough it can’t be captured on camera because my pupils are moving so quickly it can’t be recorded but if i ever met any of you in person you can ask and i’ll show you if you want.
5. do you prefer day or night?
night. i’m an actual night owl, lately i’ve had super off sleeping habits where i want to fall asleep at 9 and sleep for 12 hours, but in the past i’ve had the worst sleep pattern ever. up until earlier this year i used to sleep for maybe four hours a night, from 3 am to 7 am each night if i was lucky. as i mentioned it’s getting better but yeah, that’s a thing. and i flipping love the night too. i like the darkness and the silence and the whole if i were to go outside and scream really loudly i’d cause a mass panic in my neighborhood concept. which i’d obviously never do i just think it’s fascinating.
6. you have one day to prepare for the zombie apocalypse: what do you do?
literally everything i’ve learned on supernatural. first, buy a bunch of really thick work clothing so i’m protected, pack up jo (my subaru, coincidentally named for jo harvelle from spn) with a bunch of shotguns and other axes and weapons i can whack heads off with, a shit ton of salt because honestly you can never have too much salt, and the few people i actually care about, and silver nails because while slightly ineffective, you can fully destroy zombies by nailing them into their coffins with silver. i would then proceed to make my way up to northern idaho (like as far north as possible) and join the rednecks up there with their arsenals of weapons to help protect me and put as much distance between myself and the zombies of choice (plus northern idaho is actual wilderness and that’s a pretty safe bet here).
7. describe one of your best moments
last year, backstage with my theatre family during our last performance ever with all of us together, laughing, crying, worrying over mistakes, sobbing to showtunes and bohemian rhapsody while breaking the set, watching our last performance’s recording on the big couch at marge’s house in a giant cast cuddle puddle. the family that is my cast makes every one of the moments i’ve spent with them one of my best.
8. what book, quote, movie, event, etc, made you completely re-evaluate your life?
“be curious, not judgemental”
9. your favorite poem?
‘mad girl’s love song’ by syliva plath
10. if you could change your name what would it be to?
i like my name as is, i’ve talked about this before also, so i’m good. but if i had to choose i’d say avery, which is my go to name any time i get an idea for a novel.
11. have you ever had anything supernatural, paranormal, or something that couldn’t be explained happen to you?
ummm not that i can think of. oh my goodness but last month at the same time i was binging stranger things we were getting our house painted and some spots of our electricity were out so the light fixtures could be painted around. i was home alone one night and after watching a particularly frightening episode i made my way downstairs to the kitchen for a snack (keep in mind it was only 8:45 or so but still freakishly dark outside even though it wasn’t that late) and went to turn the lights on, forgetting that all our light fixtures had been taken out of the ceilings and wouldn’t work. that was possibly the most horrifying moment of my life, going to turn the lights on still in adrenaline mode from stranger things and it not working.
and last but not least from edge’s questions:
1. have you ever ridden on a motorcycle?
no i have not and i also really have no desire to because i can barely drive a car without having a mini freakout. driving and i… we have a love / hate relationship. it’s complicated but yeah i don’t really want to ride a motorcycle.
2. what’s the scariest experience you’ve ever had?
wow we’re really getting into the scary stuff today man. the most terrifying experience i’ll always remember is in 8th grade when i went to a music camp in washington with my best friend, her sister, and her sister’s best friend. we had a free day to go hang out in the lake nearby for a bit and hang out in town and the four of us decided to rent a paddle board and hang out in the lake. the three of them were all competitive swimmers in triathlons and such races, but i wasn’t, so when they decided to swim out to the bouys in the center of the lake, i went as far as i could and then just started treading water where i was to wait for them to come back. this was long before my growth spurt, i was still only about 5′ 2″, and the spot i was in was almost 6 feet deep so i couldn’t reach the bottom. after about ten minutes or so of treading water (i was much more athletic back then) i got really tired and couldn’t breathe and started gasping. i got so tired i couldn’t get back to where i could reach and could hardly hold myself above the water. it was probably only a few moments but for what felt like forever, i was bobbing back and forth under the water and felt like i was going to drown. eventually i pushed myself towards where i could reach the bottom and managed to take a few good breaths and stabilize myself. so yeah, that’s the story of how i almost drowned.
3. if you ever had to kill someone, how would you do it? (explain in horrible detail)
first of all, it would be on a boat somewhere near international waters. i’m thinking stabbing of some sort. i’d then proceed to have a good friend pick me up and sink the other boat with the dead person on it along with the murder weapon and all evidence. that way, nothing can be traced to me and i have the alibi and a friend with me along for the ride in case the alibi doesn’t work out and we get stuck in prison.
4. would you mind posting the 11th picture you have?
sure. it’s of myself and kyla and i honestly don’t know any context behind it at all other than we look extremely un flattering and sleepy and she’s wearing her glasses so we probably did something that forced us to be up really late and wear sweatshirts the next day. oh wait, this is dated from somewhere around the week of finals last year… everything makes sense now. i think we were in study hall prepping for our chem final before we took this. finals drain you completely, so that makes sense. there ya go.
5. what’s the meaning of life?
the meaning of life is to figure out the meaning of life. i’ve definitely answered this before so think on it for a bit and let me know your thoughts on it rather than my explaining what i mean.
6. would you rather have terrifying nightmares every night or see creepy things during the day that aren’t there?
hallucinate during the day. sleep is often my escape from my brain, so i’d really prefer not to have nightmares invading that.
7. if you had to live in a movie, which movie would it be?
ah frick, i don’t know… honestly probably she’s the man because i’ve always had this weird desire to go to boarding school. also it’s a rom com so maybe the rom com-i-ness will rub off on myself, a secondary character. also i just watched that movie recently and i’m still in that mode.
8. would you be willing to go on a scary adventure with me?
can i bring a frying pan? they’re extremely useful on multiple accounts, and i’m in.
9. can you describe in 3 words who you are?
possesses no chill
10. what’s the name of the last song you listened to?
you’ll be back from the hamilton soundtrack (da da da dat da dat da da da da ya da
da da dat dat da ya da).
11. if you had to be killed by someone, how would you want them to go about doing it?
wow mr brightside really getting into the gruesome questions here. ummmm probably that way they do it in the giver when they euthanize old people. mostly because i really hate pain and my worst fear is painful death like i just cannot handle it.
anyways! that’s all i have for today and i don’t really feel the need for a longer outro paragraph so bai. i’ll be back whenever.